I always feel compelled to return to this blog. I'm not the type to start things without finishing them. Nothing much to report these days. Bills seem to be under control, not like the summer where money was flying out the window. Spending has been greatly curtailed and luxuries like satellite TV are gone. I've been trying to ween myself off fast food, especially since I spent nearly $90 on it last month. That $90 could have easily went to groceries and fed me for much longer. However a lot of my debts are coming down on me this month. My car payment has been increased due to a lapse in insurance from last summer. I need to take a traffic school class that I've been dodging before the 12th of this month or pay in full for a ticket I got in July. My Verizon bill is going to include my cancellation fee for $230, since I went to Sprint. So many things involving money... money I really don't have.
Also Christmas is right around the corner. Christmas is my least favorite time of year. Between the total lack of celebratory glee I used to get as a child and the circumstances of my divorce... Christmas doesn't have much meaning for me. I feel dead inside when Christmas comes around, like it's just another day. I'm not a Scrooge or Grinch about it, just not excited about it. I feel bad when I can't buy presents for people I care about. However I know Christmas is not about presents. It's just what ever feelings I used to have about Christmas is gone and I don't know if I'll ever get them back.
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