A lot of emotions are going through me. Sadness, Anger, Confusion, Heart-ache... the list goes on. My main focus however is, of all things, beyond my control. I can not stand "boys" who do not know how to treat a woman. I refer to these guys as "boys" because that's what they are. Immature, fickle, thick-headed "boys" who apparently have watched too many movies and television on what it is to be a guy. This is why "nice guys" never get far with women. These "boys" have treated women so poorly, that "good girls" become bitches towards all men due to the fact they have been mistreated by guys that don't know what it is to be a gentleman.
It's a vicious cycle all around though; most guys tend to be jerks but there are nice guys. Women find nice guys to be boring after awhile and turn them into jerks. Women find themselves attracted to jerks because they think "he can change" and "they're exciting". However the jerk mistreats the girl and she becomes disenfranchised to all men once they part, making a nice guy having "a snowball's chance in hell" with any of these women. Any woman will say that she wants "someone who will treat her good" but... when you have been treated like dirt for so long, sometimes being with a genuine person feels so foreign. Human beings like what is familiar to them. Whether it be luxury or mistreatment, if it's familiar then that is what feels comfortable to them. Look at ex-cons; a human being who has been incarcerated for so long, once paroled is more likely to commit crime just to return to prison. Does it make sense, No, but it happens because human nature gravitates to what is familiar to them.
Once again, beyond my control but it's the reason I'm upset. In a perfect world, all men would be thought what it is to be a gentleman and how to treat a lady. Women wouldn't have to categorize men as pigs and be scared when a genuine, nice guy showed interest in them. However in a perfect world there would be no war, no one would be homeless or go hungry and love would never end. I can wish for a perfect world but know that I can only influence the world around me, in my own private little life.
Monday, February 20, 2012
Sunday, February 5, 2012
In with the New(s)
It's been four weeks since my last post. Still no Internet at home and the time to actually sit down to write has been non-existent. Also the fact that I'm moving out of my current place has become more of a priority than anything else. I'm moving in with, of all people, A.J. He owns his own home not far from where I'm currently living and our personalities are similar, so I feel comfortable there. Also another mutual friend, Sam, will also be moving in with us, so there will be three in the bachelor pad. I have eight months left in my lease but told the rental agency that I was moving out so they put it back up as available. I have until the end of the month to be out. Hopefully someone rents it soon and takes over my lease so I don't have to pay the full term.
There's been a lot of personal planning in my life recently. With this new year I've already got the wheels turning on getting my degree as well as being mostly debt free by year's end. My health is excellent, I've lost almost 30 pounds and 5 inches off my waist since last summer. I really can't recall being in better shape. I'm also getting with another friend of mine in the real estate business. Hopefully I'll be an associated partner by the end of this year as well. I'm hoping to save enough money within the next two years to buy my own house. Things are actually starting to look up for me.
My love life at this point is non-existent. Since Hope has decided not to date me, or anyone else for the matter, I haven't been interested in anyone lately. There have been women that have been interested in me but my response to them, in summary, has pretty much been; "meh" *shrug*
What can I say, perhaps I'm still in love with the girl. Perhaps the fact that practically anyone I meet, I've compared to her and they just don't meet the standard. I just don't know... I know what I want and right now I'm not getting it so I figure I rather not waste my time. That's all for now with the updates. Hopefully I'll be back to a regular posting schedule soon, I have so much to write about.
There's been a lot of personal planning in my life recently. With this new year I've already got the wheels turning on getting my degree as well as being mostly debt free by year's end. My health is excellent, I've lost almost 30 pounds and 5 inches off my waist since last summer. I really can't recall being in better shape. I'm also getting with another friend of mine in the real estate business. Hopefully I'll be an associated partner by the end of this year as well. I'm hoping to save enough money within the next two years to buy my own house. Things are actually starting to look up for me.
My love life at this point is non-existent. Since Hope has decided not to date me, or anyone else for the matter, I haven't been interested in anyone lately. There have been women that have been interested in me but my response to them, in summary, has pretty much been; "meh" *shrug*
What can I say, perhaps I'm still in love with the girl. Perhaps the fact that practically anyone I meet, I've compared to her and they just don't meet the standard. I just don't know... I know what I want and right now I'm not getting it so I figure I rather not waste my time. That's all for now with the updates. Hopefully I'll be back to a regular posting schedule soon, I have so much to write about.
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