I Disappear

So today was another interesting one for me. It's seems no matter what I do to try and distance myself from drama in my life something has to pop it's way in. The Yin can not exist without the Yang I guess. Well the day started out excellent. Had an entertaining phone conversation with someone while I was at work. Yay! I had a lot work to do so the conversation had to end unfortunately. Four hours later the work day was over and my weekend began. Got home and the roommate informed me he was having someone come over to clean the house tomorrow. (0_0)! Um, shocked... (see previous blog entry) Shortly after he left I did a mini workout and passed out on the couch. Woke up around noon-ish, let the dog out and passed out in my bed.
Finally got up at around 5:00, 5:30 or 6:00... whatever. Immediately jumped on Twitter, checked my timeline and had a few chuckles. Checked my FaceBook...why did I get that horrible thing... and found out that two Officers I have worked with were assaulted. The emotional roller coaster came over me and I found myself doing another workout. In the past couple of weeks I've dedicated myself to eating right, working out and quitting smoking. I haven't had a cigarette in weeks and not even a drink for seven days. I've lost 15 pounds, whittled my waist to 32 inches and increased my energy ten fold. It's like a fire been lit beneath me but I really don't know what the motivation behind it is. Actually, that's a lie. I know what the motivation is. I was having a conversation with some one last Thursday and they told me "If you want something bad enough, you have to fight for it." Kinda serves me two fold... If I stay, I could possibly be happy and have something worth fighting for. If I choose to leave, I'll be in the best shape of my life and doing something that I feel is a personal calling. It comes down to which philosophy to follow, Chalmers or Hemingway? Time will only tell...
"The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.”
-Allan K. Chalmers
"Certainly there is no hunting like the hunting of man, and those who have hunted armed men long enough...and liked it, never care for anything else thereafter."
-Ernest Hemingway