This Hectic Life

So I guess Thursday has become my new blog update day. It's been so long since my last update but with everything going on in my life it's hard to sit down and just have a moment to myself. Things have been up and down a lot. Some days are better than others. I swear what ever emotions you're going through the world adapts around you. You're sad and it seems like there's nothing bad sad songs on the radio. You're happy and content, every night is a party. You feel that ache in your heart and there's nothing but romance movies on TV. The world is a strange and funny place.
As the days go by I feel a closer and stronger connection to a particular person... but I feel it's a lot of one sided emotion. There's a significant amount of time spent thinking about this person. The present... The future... Beginning to wonder if the effort I put in it is worth it at this point. I know it is. That what my heart tells me. It's not that she is a cold person, totally not. She's warm, funny, caring, expressive, beautiful... I could go on and on. It's the unrequitedness of the whole situation. I understand it though, she's being cautious. It's not that she doesn't want to be with someone who cares for her, it's just that she doesn't want be hurt again for the same reason. I get it... that's why I'm waiting. The fact that bothers me is this; I'm not going to wait forever. I feel lost.
I guess that's all for now.