So it's been an interesting week. Budding new friendships, haunting pasts revisited and ultimate betrayal. Also today is day two of no alcohol, when I go out though. I do drink when I'm home because I've convinced myself that drinking at home is harmless due to the fact I can't embarrass myself. I'm pretty sure the dog can care less what I do at home. So I went out with my new friends "Barnes", his friend Frank and "Kelly" to the casino for karaoke. I did very well with my songs and on stage to boot. The big screen was not working so to sing, meant getting up on stage. A good thing since I suffer from "stage fright". There are a couple of fears I want to conquer this year before it's over and it was good to get over that. It was still uneasy for me to have a good time since I was still reeling from the fact my ex"best friend" stabbed me in the heart to purposely sabotage my evening.
I did have a good time but I let my emotions get the best of me. I have tried to live by; "Have no expectations and you will have no disappointments." However the betrayal of AJ two nights earlier has left me vulnerable. Either way time has brought nothing new to perturb me at this point so I guess I'm grateful for that. I'm also grateful for new friends that value having a good time over selfish drama. In the the new out with the old, I guess.
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